When I was little my parents always told me to look before I leap. Being a child I didn't really know what they meant. As a toddler I'd often find myself rolling around in a field and not realizing I was rolling around in dog shit before it was too late. There were numerous occasions where I pointed out the fact that the lady in front of us at the check out counter was fat, or told my grandmother that her cooking was horrid. I didn't know when to keep my hands to myself or not to walk out of store with a toy I didn't pay for. Every action had an equal reaction... sometimes the action was a little over blown but none the less, I learned.
Through out my adolescent years I learned that revealing one's homosexuality could lead to some very big trouble in terms of bullying & gay bashing. And I learned that sex doesn't always lead to love but that love always leads to sex.
All those life lessons and everything else in between has shaped me into the adult I am today. An adult that fully understands what my parents meant when I was a child.
As an adult, it wasn't an easy decision for me to do porn. When I was offered the opportunity to get myself into the adult industry, I had to seriously think about it. I though about how it could adversely affect my future career plans. I knew that it could come back to haunt me when I tried to get some white collar, 9 to 5, desk job. I knew that I could lose some friends, get an STD, damage my chances of a happily ever after. And I definitely knew it wouldn't be a lifelong career. I knew there were countless risks involved. Nobody needs to tell me that.
But I also knew that it was something I wanted to do and that I would enjoy doing it. I knew that there were plenty of guys in porn who were also doctors, teachers, and any other job title in there everyday life. I knew that despite all the odds and the naysayers that when my day to leave the industry came, I would land on my feet and be ok.
Yes I know I theres a chance that some of the people who interview me for a job might watch gay porn, and yes I know that some of those people might recognize me, and yes I know that some of those people might turn me down for the job just because of that. But I will still keep trying and eventually, I'll get hired.
Because if you seriously think about it, the chances of every job interviewer being someone who watches gay porn, recognizes the fact that I've been in gay porn, and then being someone who is against hiring me for that fact, are pretty damn slim. And yes I do realize that they run background checks but did you realize that most of the porn studios I worked for actually operate under a different name than what is published to the public. A generic discreet name that sounds nothing like a porn company.
There is always going to be a chance that someone somewhere that I work with will recognize me and there is always a chance I will get fired for it. But theres a chance I could win the lottery. Point being, anything is possible.
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