27 March 2011

Recreating My World in Seven Days: Day 3

On Day 3 of recreating my world, I have decided to reopen my personal sex life to the general audience. Over the past few months I have been feeling like the gay man's dirty little secret. Whether it's just my imagination or reality, it seems as though a growing number of people want to spend time with me on the "down low." I get hit up for anything and everything, by boys next door to boys in porn, as long as it's not privy to the public. Considering that most of these boys live their lives out in the open, tweeting everything they experience from haircuts to hard fucks, it's quite insulting that I get swept under the rug. Even strictly platonic friendships have been relegated to strictly private places. And the saddest part is I allowed it. I bought into thinking my reputation was so toxic that I would have a detrimental effect on anyone seen with me. I used this way of thinking as my rationalization for keeping most of my personal interactions concealed. My desire for social and sexual contact weakened me to a point where I succumbed to other people's fears, leading me to devalue myself in a way I have never done before... censoring myself. This I can not do any longer. My life is an open book, if you want to be a part of it, whether it be for minutes or years, you will have to accept the fact that I am a big fan of show and tell.

28 comments:

  1. I have absolutly no idea who either of them are, but I agree with you

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  2. Damn Mason I would be proud to walk down the street with you if you were my man. NO shame in being gay or others knowing I am happy.

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  3. Good. I'm glad you're starting to realize you're still human and not fuck-trash. Keep having fun and being happy... You'll get to a great place soon enough :)

    Probably not your cup of tea, but I was listening to Howlin' Wolf's "Spoonful" today and I thought, I really do hope MW finds his spoonful :P

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  4. Wow. What a profound sharing. Be proud. But remember. Sometime. We trade a bit of ourself. For a longing. Not yet understood

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  5. Hey James, here's a lil gem I like to go to in certain situations. This my friend, is from me to you;
    "Integrity is telling myself the truth. And honesty is telling the truth to other people."-Spencer Johnson

    You are a man whos integrity is absolute. Remember that the stupidity of man and games they play will never change a man of integrity unless he allows it.

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  6. Brasil1800 said:
    Mason, you're onthe right track ,we have to turn around and rise from the ashes like a Phenix . Do not judge yourself, be yourself. I too have felt this way. Go ahead, do not look back, you have many admirers. I would have you as a real friend. From Brazil to Wyler Nation.

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  7. I'm glad to see you're getting back into the swing of things. If these people only wanted to spend time with you in private, they can't be very good friends. Live your life the way you want to, and if other people don't like it, or don't want to be seen with you, that's their loss. Spend time with the people who really care.

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  8. What interest me to follow and read your thoughts..Is not being Mason Wyler as the hottest porn star.What interest me is your persona.I understand your job the nature of it, and it's complexities. Sometimes I wish that you will not allow others to exploit you.Not all people are after for the pleasure of sexual voyeurism.Some are sincere to know who you are as a person and not as the quantity of your mistakes or predicaments. I admired you more than you can imagine.

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  9. Why have a taken some kind of interest in the way your life has developed? I think I started to "enjoy your work" when I was 16 or something, now I seem to actively want to read these manifestos you seem to produce quite regularly.

    My opinion is that you can't change anyone, so just surround yourself with people who want to share in your life - everyone else can just miss out. It's not worth the drama.

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  10. head up my friend... it all shall pass!! hope you feel better soon, and shame not to live closer to just go for a coffee!!

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  11. I'm so glad that you've decided to be open about your sex life.

    This may sound hedonistic, but if this makes your life a good one, it it makes you happy (and obviously no one is harmed by it) then GO FOR IT!!! We seldom get such opportunities to direct our lives towards happiness and fun and I'm glad to see you do it.

    Besides, I find you SO BLOODY HOT that I get some minor enjoyment out of this as well...

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  12. I have been following ur tweets and your stuff online for a while. Sex beside I don't know if your, good guy or a bad guy! One may never know however I would one day look forward to possible find out... Keep doing what you do so keep us all informed!

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  13. Don't beat yourself up because of other peoples problems. You've done some weird stuff but you are only human after all.

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  14. I'd be proud to claim you as a friend Mason.

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  15. Just remember that it is when you are at your lowest you find out who all your friends are. The people who said they where your friends and are not there now or will only be friends if no one knows are not. Just always remember those of us who love you for who you are no matter what. If you ever need a friend to talk to I am here with open arms, ears, and legs if need be grin.

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  16. you are self obsessed. you really need a good vacation from yourself. maybe we are obssessed with you for one reason only. most porn stars are rarely remembered or around anymore. not to be mean. you have a become a star of sorts. your young, but grow up already. people do have normal boring sex lives out there. normal as in not sexually addicted for life.

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  17. Yay, I heart show and tell too!

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  18. Listen in life some thing are private. To share them makes them not seem special or even of value. You have value, who you are, what you do has value. You are a wonderful man, How do I know this? All I had to do is read your comments on here. You are a sexual person and there is nothing wrong with that. You have a private life and for some they think you should share it. But for me what you decide to share is up to you. I don't know if you will ever read this. But know there are people out there who would give anything just to spend time with you and to know your life. This has nothing to do with sex it has to do with getting to know you and knowing you are a fucking great person. I will admit your films turn me on. I see you for more than just the sex you share. You are a wonderful person never fucking forget that. You are allowed to have a life without the public seeing everything....We love you...Never forget that..We are fans for a reason, we see the real you. You do what is right for you and only you..

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  19. Like the redesign of the site. It fits you better than the last iteration. I have to say though, your nonsequitur rhetorical conversations sometimes confuse me. You provide answers to questions we know nothing about. It's like when George Lucas makes names and terms for things in his movies but doesn't explain them, leaving one to scratch one's head.

    In what way are people overlooking you? If that were true you wouldn't have 20 replies to every post you make. And since when are you shy or confidential about your sex life? And who said you're the gay scene's dirty little secret? You're HIV positive and have to be careful about sex and giving blood. Uhm, so are a lot of people. It's been going on since the early 80's.

    Love the "god complex" though. Very cool, in a biblical kind of way. Can't wait to see what happens in Day 4.

    cheers,

    wotmewordy

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  20. i rarely comment on blogs anymore but NEVER FORGET youre a human being, never put up with dehumanizing bullshit from people. you have a chronic condition, thats all. if people can't fucking take it, its their own cross to bear. you just keep your head up, cock unwrapped and hole well plowed and filled with jizz...

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  21. Mason I've been a fan for a long time. One of my favorite scenes ever is you with Kody and Brock from ActiveDuty. I wanted you to know that there are many of us out in the world who have always been fans of yours, who just never know we could speak to you directly. So never think the haters you see make up a majority of anything -- there are millions more like me I'm sure who would love to give you a pat on the back or buy you a beer. I hope I get the chance to someday!

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  22. Mason, you are the dream I have when I go to sleep at night and then some, and I have such admiration for you! So, don't obsess over what people think about you or not think about you, what false friends, say behind your back (they are all jealous of you!)because you are still a very good person in your core!

    Brian R. Parris,NYC East Village

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  23. Long-time fan, Mason. Glad to see you reclaim yourself in this way. I for one would be proud to be seen with you. Since your big announcement, you've seemed to have lost your fire, your mojo - glad you've got it back, bro!

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  24. Your comment... "I have never done before... censoring myself". You are still censoring...by only allowing what comments you want people to see.

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  25. I am glad to read this post. Your new status does not make you less human, and nobody should ever let you feel that way. The only thing different about you is you made one unwise choice ( ok a few) that eventually bit you in the ass. That doesn't make you a leper. If they are that ashamed, maybe they shouldn't have had the encounter in the first place.

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  26. http://www.wylernation.com/2009/05/fuck-and-tell.html?zx=5f9ac8ace5af003f

    Didn't you already tell everyone your not discreet. No apology necessary.

    Thanks,

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  27. Be yourself and be proud

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