When a gay porn-something tells you he is retiring from smut-making, what he really means is his porn career is over. "Retirement" is a term video-whores like to throw around and devalue just like they do with the word, "star". Lots of times you hear of porn "stars" who "retire" to pursue loftier dreams in a wide range of other fields, from working their way up the corporate ladder to working the corner of rentboy.com and men4rentnow.com. Whatever they do after their days of fucking in front of the camera have stopped, they all end up having to WORK for a living, one way or another. This they call retirement and this is a total misuse of the word. In reality, to retire is to quit your job and cease working altogether because you can AFFORD to. Of course, the only people who can truly claim retirement are the people who have enough money in the bank to live off of for the remainder of their lives... or the people who don't mind being homeless. That being said, most porn-somethings I know don't have that kind of cash or tolerance. Retirement doesn't apply when you decide you don't like your work anymore, quit, and look for income elsewhere. And retirement definitely doesn't apply when your work decides they don't like you anymore, forcing you to find a different job. Call it what it is, quitting, being fired, getting laid off, unemployed, or simply over.
Over is exactly what I am. My contract is expired as of today. MasonWyler.com is officially dead. After 3 years of working for Next Door Studios they have decided I am of no more use or value to their company and have opted not to resign me. My porn career had been on life-support for over a year now so this isn't a big surprise for me. Still, having the plug finally pulled on something I love is depressing to me. I genuinely enjoy my line of work and I wish there was still a place for me in it, but I am fairly certain my time is up. I have never been an ambitious or creative person so I am having a bit of trouble figuring out what to do next. I, like the other porn-somethings, am in no position to retire so it is imperative that I realign my goals soon. Right now though, I think I just want to take a few days to mourn the end of a very big chapter in my life.